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lyrics
I just sit and watch, I listen and observe
It’s something I’ve always done
Placing my thoughts somewhere unheard
except in the minds of the people who’s heads, they’re already overrun
my thoughts remain preserved and undisturbed
but do I deserve the nerves?
As if this was anything but a change of pace
This place has always remained the same
while I witnessed everyone waiting for the scenery to change.
And I guess I’ve just been that kid all along.
and that was the only place that I’ve ever called home.
It was the only place that I've known, the soil where I was grown.
I come back and walk down familiar streets
see unfamiliar faces pass me by without a second glance
without a greet and no repeat,
I don’t think their apathetic stance is just by chance.
I’ve seen that look in your eye
the same one I see in the expressions of people just passing me by
I try to remember if this is how it’s always been.
Is this how it's always been?
it’s a furtive glance and nothing more.
It’s like they can’t have rain unless it pours.
I see the emptiness calling out
like a ghost that with no voice trying to shout.
Mouth to dry to speak
slowly dehydrating from the drought.
and I feel it too.
I’m a naturalist
a marijuana advocate
and that’s my catalyst
I’m still a graduate, an antagonist
I’m an accident, an absent activist
I can’t stand to hear another word or take this shit.
Behind these white walls I’m slipping away,
with no phone calls
or anyone to keep my demons and ghosts at bay.
I’m just siting up in bed, lying awake
finding any attempt to supplicate that I’m just lost in my head,
and that’s just the way it’s always been.
When the sun rises with rays that are divided through my window
and I still see nothing but grizzled skies foggy, and grey.
and I can hear the wind blow from the ground below.
Maybe I’d be excited to see if everything at once didn’t get to me.
I just feel it too.
I guess I always have.
You and I, I realized were not so different.
but the unsettling realization is what I hate about both of us
is that we’re not resistant and I’ve become so distant.
and I know you feel it too
We all look for purpose,
because I guess we think that we deserve it.
But we spend life times working for nickels and dimes
just to find no matter how hard you persist, it just doesn’t exist.
It’s a mistake, it's a fallacy, it’s not even in our reality.
it’s only in our hearts and minds and their expansive duality.
The whispers speak out in the darkness
it haunts us and you lie awake, your mind unscathed and
everything that you heard, and every word you tattooed
with the scars of the past
you wear a synthetic smile like you were miscast
You just can’t speak up about anything you’ve been through
I guess when it comes down to it I just don’t envy you.
And all along it’s been this way
and I think it will always stay the same and remain unchanged.
But I’m forced to hear the silence in human vice, poverty, and violence
read between the lines, in the fine print, see simplicity in complexity
But I’m just not finding it.
and I'm just not finding it, and I guess I just feel it too.
But there is just nothing we can do.
credits
from Naturalist,
released December 7, 2016
Featuring Zack St. Paul, Eric Canto, Brayden Ellis, Mason Hopkins, Tom Cifello, and Michaela Bottino
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